Friday, July 17, 2009

Day 47 of 100

Not sure what's going on. Since noon yesterday, I haven't written a single word in my journal. And LOTS has been going on. The sort of stuff I normally feel compelled to capture in some sort of written fashion--to sort it out, make sense, wonder.

But no. Since yesterday's painting, with the black squiggly "letters" at the end, I have not been able to pick up my journal. It almost feels like when you try to put the "wrong" sides of two magnets together--you'd swear something invisible was getting in the way of those two magnets making contact.

As soon as I thought of today's painting, I knew it would be more black squiggles.

I just "listened," and then painted.

Had to have a background--blue for endless sky. Painted it horizontally on the page. When I picked up my rigger and carbon black ink and was ready to "write," I knew to turn the page a quarter-turn. I'd thought the horizontal lines in the sky color would be the lines I'd write along.

Turns out I was supposed to write in columns, between vertical lines.

I did most of the writing in one sitting. Went back a few hours later, looked at it,
and then added a few dots and a couple very short lines.

I have NO CLUE what it "says." I just know that I look at it and feel comforted.

I am way into unfamiliar territory right now. I would have thought I'd feel adrift without writing in my journal, especially since some very significant things have happened in the last 24 hours.

But for right now, painting in a non-verbal style of expression is profoundly moving to me.

Maybe I'm nuts. Maybe not. But I sure feel something deep down,
that is brandnew and wonderful.
That's good enough for me.


Amanda Fall - PersistentGreen said...

This looks very much like kanji to me... maybe you picked up on Liz going to Japan?? :) Seriously, though, there's something very beautiful about the wordless words here.

aquamaureen said...

I'm glad someone else seees that they are "wordless words." And I usually want to "know" everything, but here, I am content to just let this be what it is.

Lauren said...

"I sure feel something deep down,
that is brandnew and wonderful.
That's good enough for me."

...these words gave me goosebumps.

I'm sorry i've been kind of absent my friend. Lots has been happening here...all good things, but stressful just the same. Trying to get "caught up" with all my favorite people...working from the most recent post backwards...not the best way to follow you on your journey.

i like the "rigger" -- not sure what that is exactly since i'm not an artist, but I am thinking it's like some kind of quill? anyhow...whatever it is, i like what you're doing with it.

aquamaureen said...

Lauren--sooooo glad to hear from you again--I just left a longer message for you via email.